the_scapegoat: (Burn in Hell)
Kein Mitleid lyrics )

All there was was darkness. So very far from the light he had known. Immobile, heavy chains bound him from head to foot, and on him, blocking out all, jagged rocks pressed against him. But that pain was nothing to the still searing agony in his back. Stumps. That was all Raphael had left him wings. The physical pain was nothing compared to the pain of humiliation and abandonment, nor the anger that was growing.

That anger fermented down in that abyss. From that anger came the hate. A hate so deep and unrelenting. Yes, the Grigori disobeyed Him, knowingly and willingly. They conspired, making a pact with each other to stand fast in their choice. But He had overreacted, he believed that. No trial, no appeal, just immediate judgement and execution. Because this torment, this punishment was execution indeed. He had stripped him of everything.

Love. A gift given by Him to His last creation, but denied to His Host. Knowledge shared with them condemned. Their children slaughtered as monsters. To be kept in the Abyss until Judgement Day.

No. NO, he would not!

In his rage and pain he screamed, long and loud, wishing that the sound could be carried all the way to Him and knowing it wouldn't.

Bones mended, reforming him into something else. Time passed, meaningless to him, but still too long. They came to him. Grotesque, broken wings dragging, two hundred who had Fallen with him worked to free him. The Grigori still his.

Freed, he gazed up out of the Abyss to beyond that which he could see. He ascribed to him all sin, then he would earn that responsibility. Earn it well.

Something called to him, and he turned to the darkness once more. With his Grigori around him, he walked towards the sound in full knowledge of what called and what his path now was.
the_scapegoat: (Emo tear (animated))
"The God that holds you over the Pit of Hell, as much as one holds a spider or some other loathsome insect over the Fire, abhors you, and is dreadfully provoked; his Wrath towards you burns like Fire; he looks upon you as worthy of nothing else but to be cast into the Fire; he is of purer Eyes than to bear to have you in his Sight; you are Ten Thousand Times so abominable in his Eyes as the most hateful, venomous Serpent is in are thus in the Hands of an angry god, 'tis nothing but his mere Pleasure that keeps you from being a at this Moment swallowed up in everlasting Destruction." - Pastor Jonathan Edwards, from "A Joseph Campbell Companion" edited by Dian K. Osbon

The long distant past

They knew as soon as their hearts decided to go with the women, human and Fae, that they would be cast out. Two hundred, led by Azazeal and Shemyaza united together in their disobedience, not one Grigori would break ranks to save himself. Together they discovered the pleasures and desires that His other Creations were granted. They loved them, begot children on them, and a few -- the Fae -- closer kin than humans especially loved them in return. Among the first women that had approached was Perie, a young Sidhe, who had been the one to catch Azazeal's eye. They loved and made love as did all those around them.

Then came the men, and the Grigori befriended them, giving them knowledge that He had not revealed to them. Astrology, astronomy, maths, science, art, and the skills that Azazeal chose to share with them. To them he gave the knowledge of how to forge weapons and use them. To the women, he showed how to beautify themselves with cosmetics. And seeing His Creations with sword and kohl, He sent down the archangel, Raphael.

Bind Azazael hand and foot, and cast him into the darkness: and make an opening in the desert, which is in Dûdâêl and cast him there.

There was no opportunity to defend themselves, no chance to explain. As his brothers fell, Azazeal fought with Raphael. The fight, long and brutal, with neither giving ground took them high into the sky. Even knowing the inevitable end, Azazeal refused to concede until he realized they were going so high, almost to Heaven itself, and that had been the archangel's goal all along. For then, as they broke apart, a searing pain tore into his back, and he could already feel himself falling. Bones were snapping and twisting as he tumbled out of control. He could feel Raphael following him as he tried to turn and face him again, but he couldn't. Before him, the earth opened up, and he fell into darkness, as the Lord had commanded. There, weakened from his Fall, and what was left of his wings a useless broken mass of bone and muscle hanging from his back, he lay on the ground. Craning his neck up, he saw Raphael standing over him, and before he could move, the last indignity as the remains of his wings were ripped off, leaving only bloody stumps. The rest was tolerable after that as he was chained onto the rock, jagged and rough rocks placed on top of him, and his face covered so that he could no longer see the light. Then came God's last pronouncement on him.

And the whole earth has been corrupted through the works that were taught by Azazael: to him ascribe all sin.

And there he was to remain until Judgement, where he would be cast into the fire. As he was punished Gabriel was setting the children of the Grigori to war with each other until everyone was destroyed. But the angels had forgotten one thing in their cleansing of the sins the Fallen had committed. The men lived and the women lived. Perie lived and would live for a very long time, and Azazeal had given her the secret of how to summon him when the time was right.


I laugh in the face of anyone, human or angel, who dares to lecture me on His love and benevolence. He is an angry god, an intolerant god, who when faced with something he does not like, throws a temper tantrum and throws all his toys away. He wants to keep you ignorant so that you do not question. He demands your love and obedience, but He does not care for you. What Father would punish him children so harshly for falling in lust love? He is vengeful, intolerant, and wrathful, and I am so amused at all those of you who cannot see that.
the_scapegoat: (We all go to Hell)
1. Make a list of your favorite things to see.

1. Malachi growing up.
2. Jocelyn de Rochefort
3. Faelyn de Rochefort preferably naked and sprawled out on her bed waiting for me.
4. Remiel causing trouble and not screwing up.
5. Mephistopheles suffering eternal torment.
6. Angels succumbing to temptation.
7. Quentin Tarantino film night.
8. Ella Dee being tortured.
9. Ella Dee dead (when it happens, it will be one of my favourite sights)
10. His downfall (again, when it happens)

(OOC: #2 & 3 refer to [ profile] faedefrance and [ profile] fannyfae respectively, and the ongoing rp with their writer, the rest are based on HEX canon.)
the_scapegoat: (cherubim strikeout)
As we come into a time of deep religious meaning for many, it seems fitting to ask how you balance your own religious morals with those of your muses? Do your beliefs play into the way your muse reacts to things? How much research do you feel is necessary if you take on a muse who holds beliefs totally opposite from those you hold in your personal life? Would you be able to comfortably play someone so unlike yourself?

I chose to answer this prompt from Azazeal's account, as he is really the muse this question most applies to. Personally, I am agnostic when it comes to religious beliefs (although I do have a slight leaning towards more pagan beliefs), but I grew up in a Church of England household. Now, when it comes to my other muses, I find that either just glossing over their beliefs or a bit of research goes a long way. [ profile] civ_barbarian is a pagan, but as there is next to nothing known of the religion of his people, I have a lot of leeway in what I can use for his beliefs or not. Plus, aside from celebrating the main pagan festivals, it does not really make up a great part of the modern Hsu. Power, profit, pleasure -- in that order -- is really his religion. I write/have written three Muslim muses, two of those being historical in a heretical Islamic sect, so it is a matter of research on the Nizari rather than Islam as a whole. The other is [ profile] seesonlysmoke, who is both modern and a devout follower. I do research, plus I mostly use the general knowledge of Muslims and its tenents, and honestly, I'm more concerned with accurately depicting a Kashmiri freedom fighter and what it's like to live in a region that I'm unfamiliar with than his religion.

Azazeal has proven quite different. Being that he is so very connected with Judeo-Christian lore, and I have to start with the Bible and Apocrypha to be even slightly familiar with his origins and that has been quite an exercise. My own knowledge of Christianity is quite basic, learned from my childhood at Sunday School, and face it...CoE churches are 'Catholic Lite' and a close examination of Biblical texts were more of an option than required reading. Angels are the good, wholesome characters with white wings and tinsel halos.

At first it wasn't too difficult as I merely went from HEX canon, which in itself does not necessarily follow source material, but it is canon for the show. However, as I got more into delving into Azazeal's character and the whys and wherefores of his fall, I began to research more into his origins, and it has been a fascinating journey, and I must thank [ profile] fannyfae's writer for helping point out some excellent sources, and in tying in with Fae mythology which also really works for him. In the end, while I have learned a wealth of information about the angelic choirs, demonolgy, etc, it has not changed my lack of belief in the Judeo-Christian god. Indeed, whereas before I didn't give it much thought, now I view the Bible and attached books even more as mythology akin to the stories from, say, Greek-Roman mythology.
the_scapegoat: (Dance with the devil)
1. Make a list of people who you still need to buy presents for*

Ella Dee
Faelyn de Rochefort (and Sebastien)
Caroline de Rochefort (and Stelios)
Jocelyn de Rochefort
Thelma Bates
Alexa Bond Carter
Cassius Albinius
Sally Owens
And anyone else I've spoken to.

Of course, to say "need" doesn't necessarily mean that I will. And for those I do, I do hope you'll enjoy them.
the_scapegoat: (Remiel & Azazeal colour)
My mun was browsing YouTube, and she came across this very interesting viewpoint on His creations. The man might have been an atheist, but he had it pretty much right.

And Remiel's favourite )
the_scapegoat: (Fallen angel (b&w))
"To place oneself in the position of God is painful: being God is equivalent to being tortured. For being God means that one is in harmony with all that is, including the worst. The existence of the worst evils is unimaginable unless God willed them." George Bataille

[locked to those who know Azazeal's true nature]

So many humans today forget that. The message is God is love. They believe that He is not only omnipotent and omniscient, but omnibenevolent too. They believe He forgives through His only begotten son. That He not only hears their prayers, but that He answers them too. That He picks their lottery numbers for them. They stand their in their churches, the best being the evangelical ones, praying, preaching and singing His praises and then claim to be filled with His love, inspired by Him to pass the 'good word' to some poor, unsuspecting bastard.

Now, dismissing for the moment the fact that He has no interest in such trivial matters, they forget that from the beginning He has always been a jealous and vengeful God. Remember the orders He gave Adam and Eve? Wiping out all but one family and two of every beast? Sodom and Gomorrah? The plagues? The list can go on and on, and those are just the ones against His most loved of creations. It would be so much longer if, I were to add His actions against the Fae and those of us who have Fallen.

So why is it that He is so fond of mass genocide against His most favoured -- aside from the fact that He just can't face the fact His third attempt is His worst failure? It is because He not only allows evil to exist, He created it as He created all. He let the Morningstar rebel and Fall, and he allowed my brothers and I to also Fall, knowing full well what role we would then fulfill. To perpetrate evil and encourage sin.

Mad, isn't it? This loving God, whose priests preach forgiveness and salvation, is the one who made it possible for you all to sin in the first place. He wants you to fail and then humble and humiliate yourself on your knees in His house, and most will never know until Judgement what their fate will be.

Why does He do this? Why does He allow his creations to suffer? Why not just ask for their love and give it in return? Not even I can answer that. But instead of thinking that Satan is evil incarnate -- or I or any demon -- humans should remember the evil He created and perpetuates, solely to trip you up. Tell me, is that the action of a kind and loving God?

June 2010

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